Here again. Had a pretty productive day today. Working on an article review. I'm always nervous that I won't find anything I would change and then I always do.
Only about 3 weeks before I have to actually be really working again. I'm teaching on face to face and one online and so it won't be that bad. More concerned about getting my graduate students to do their work. And I've found my way out of teaching the usual required grad course in the spring and that feels just wonderful. After the shitty experiences I've had with grad students, I'd just as soon stay away as much as possible. It's sad that a few taint my perception of the others, but it's hard not to let it. Oh well. I'll keep trying to resist.
Going to get the little dudes in a bit. C is coming over this evening to swim with me and the boys and eat some dinner.
Been having some great conversations with my good friend, Mary. We've been in and out of communication--we do better and worse catching up with each other. But we've been doing really well lately via phone and email and I'm really enjoying connecting with her. It's just good.
Going to go to kick ass yoga again in a bit. Then, hopefully, lunch with the mister. Love.
here at the house. working on the new computer. loving it.
the phone guy just left...again. never works.
ugh.
i've actually been going to a yoga class 2 times a week for about a month now. i've found a very intense teacher. she doesn't touch or do any adjustments, but she's very skilled and her classes are demanding and challenging. it's good for me. there are a couple of poses I have no interest in doing, like side arm balance, for example. but i also went ahead and attempted a bird of paradise the other day and wanted to do a little proud-of-myself-dance. that was a big deal for me.
it is good to be back at it. unfortunately, i think it's going to end once classes begin next month. this particular yoga class is at the exact same time when i'll be teaching my own classes this fall. ugh. so now i'm going to have to figure out some other way and time to get to do some yoga. of course, just when i start feeling good again.
and i was thinking about my connection to yoga this morning. remembering back 12 years ago when we were getting married. it was stressful. my dad was having a party for us at his house for all of the out of town people 2 nights before the wedding. you don't know me so you don't know about my relationship with my dad and his wife. at that time it was pretty nonexistent. and going to his house was just a horrible thought. just frightening. i remember sitting in my mom's room at her house before i had to get ready to go. i sat on the floor in the corner and just stretched and stretched for about 20 minutes. i did it totally unselfconsciously, without any judgment. it just came naturally. i had never taken yoga before, i didn't know anything about it. but i think that is what i was doing. i think i was doing my own yoga. and it totally calmed me down. and i felt centered and relaxed. i got ready and we went. and i made it through fine. i think i have always needed to move in that way. it's good for me.
Monkey is about 3.5 years now. Moonpie is 14 months now. Incredible.
They're really starting to play together. Interacting and chasing each other around. They get each other laughing and teasing all the time. I'm always on edge because they're still too rough and uncoordinated with each other. Still, it's wonderful to see them as friends and brothers. Good things to come.
Moonpie has been walking since 10 months. He's got about 5 B words and also says Dada, Mama (less often), and kitty. He has dimples on his dimples. The most amazing smile I have ever seen. And he's also got opinions. He's dramatic when he doesn't get his way. Also obsessed with bottles. Wants a milk bottle. I want him off the bottle, but that's going to be a big deal. A big process I think. I'm trying not to think about it or worry about it much. He's also a great eater. Many fewer opinions about food than Monkey. So that makes him easier at meals than his brother. No complaints on food.
Monkey is learning to swim. For about a week now he's been swimming with us in the big pool without anything to support him. He's kind of fearless about it and that makes me nervous. He's getting better and better every day though. Pretty amazing. He is a Pisces after all. My little fish. He should be really swimming on his own by the end of the summer I think. We swim every day after school.
They are wonderful.
I have not been here in a long time it seems. I woke up this morning thinking that I need to come back. Stop bothering with facebook. This is a good place for me to write and document. Not many people read it. That's good. There's stuff that I can say on here that I can't say in other places. I should be here. I'm trying to make a comeback.
